How'd you ever make me feel like something I could never be?
Your hands pound the steering wheel, our children singing in the backseat
I can't do this anymore. Go up and down the hills and pass me.
When you're looking out for birds, remember when I was a young one.
My cold skin too white for words, the warmth I had, had not been burned up
When we were rowing through the ice, you thought I'd always have enough.
Cold hands inside warm sheets, a salt-sweat taste on my tongue
the red lenses we saw through to match our cheeks and lapel pins
the way you held me all together, until you dissolved in me like silk.
There was a fire down the street and we could feel it on the cold glass
our bodies and the window meet, I was so worried I could not ask
Our favorite places they were fine, I fell asleep while you were working
Your feelings are nothing like mine, I could never have a sure thing
I always knew there'd come a time, separated by a small stream.
We wore it to the threads. Wrung it out just like a rag.
I know you didn't think we could
We ground it into dust.
released November 7, 2014